Why write a blog? Why write a blog at all? Why do i feel the need to share with total strangers, my innermost thoughts, my idiosyncrasies, my Pandora’s box of secrets that if written in a diary, would, without doubt, be kept under lock and key?

When i write, i pour my heart out, as if i were talking back at myself, as if i were confiding in a trusted friend or a therapist. I write under a pseudonym to protect my anonymity and to keep the contents away from those prying eyes outside of the blogging world that would tear me to pieces in disbelief if they read my truths which often read as if they are from a horror movie. Unfortunately, the only movie they are taken from is the movie of my true life.

One member of my family who has discovered i keep a blog has said so many times, “what do you want to put your private stuff ‘ out there’ for?” Then adding, “why on Earth do you want to air your dirty laundry in public?” I hesitate, cautious not to make their opinion of me worse still. I fail miserably by saying things like,”i get to know other people who often feel as i do or at least are interested enough to want to read past the first line”. “I get support”, i say. “Who from?”  is the next question. Then they add one long string of anti-tech words like, “what rubbish are you talking about? It (being my laptop), is just one machine talking to another. The machines don’t have emotions and character”.But they completely fail to understand that there are people with thoughts, worries, memories and feelings etc at the end of, and operating these ‘machines’.

I feel i have made good friends; friends who i can share my darkest, deepest thoughts with who do not rebuke me, nor criticize my language skills. And i feel very privileged to be thought of as trustworthy enough to read of other bloggers’ inner worlds. The world of bloggers is as secret as it is public:We spill the contents of our hearts onto the ‘paper’, usually under a pen-name so as not to be discovered and before we know it, we’ve pressed the PUBLISH button and there it all goes, spewing out into the world for all and sundry to see.

Personally, i feel it helps me; it is the time i can let go of my inhibitions and just share what happens to be in or on my mind and that it always a relief. Although when my words go out into the universe, i am self-critical about what i have written and find myself thinking, “what a load of tosh! Who on Earth really wants to read my thoughts?” And sometimes i get feedback to say i have helped someone so that makes at least two of us! Sometimes i don’t get feedback or i have doubts about what i have written and am all ready, and sometimes do hit the DELETE or CANCEL POST button and there it goes, sometimes unspoken, sometimes unheard, into the atmosphere.

Author: Ellie Thompson

Writing my memoirs, musings, a little fiction and a lot of poetry as a way of exploring and making the most of my life ... ... Having had a break from writing my blog for more than three years, I decided to return to write my memoirs, some day-to-day observations, views and feelings. My passion is non-fiction poetry. I have a disability and use an electric powerchair called Alfie and let nothing get in the way of living life to the full. I believe that you can never do a kindness too soon and should give credit where credit is due. A smile or a kind word could make the difference between a good or bad day for a person - we never know what's going on for another soul. Those little things, perhaps, practised daily like a mantra, could mean so much to someone else. Thank you for visiting my blog and reading a little more about me. Please, make yourself at home here. You are very welcome. Ellie x 😊


  1. Well. I do not hit the “delete” button very often because writing is an art for me… But I DO frequently change the setting to private!! I too have found this wonderful community to be a source of encouragement. It’s like group therapy but easier because we are behind a computer screen. It’s not quite so scary this way. But it provides the support of group therapy. I love your honesty on here, and you are a great writer. I’m so sorry you’ve been through what you have, but I love that you’re able to open up and work through it. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for allowing me to be a part of your group therapy 🙂

    1. I feel very privileged to have made friends within our group therapy sessions. I love that way of expressing how we think and feel. I agree with you and enjoy following your blog too :). Thank you for your kind comments. I’ve yet to discover the ‘privacy settings’ but will endeavour to search for them on my travels 🙂 xxx

      1. when you are in “edit post” on the right column under “publish” you should see an eye and it says visibility. there you can determine if it’s public or private. 😉

  2. I literally just said today that I can’t believe I’m airing my dirty laundry to the world. People don’t want to read my shameful drama?? Right? But somehow writing and putting it out there forces me to face it as we’ll and makes it harder to deny it and hide it back under the rug. I’m so glad you wrote this. It’s helpful to know others have similar struggles.

    1. I think any of us that are dealing with such sensitive issues as some of us are feel much the same. I know there have been more times than i care to count when i have published a blog, only to then want to hide under a blanket or put a brown paper bag over my head so no-one can ‘see’ me and even I can’t see my self in the mirror. It does help to know we are not alone. Thank you for your comment x

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