Why don’t my tears fall when anyone can see?
As if I must hide my pain from the world with shame
When I cry alone, and only then
Do those painful tears cascade
Like waterfalls down both cheeks
I am not in the least, ashamed of knowing that in my splintered heart
You may think me strong
But inside, I am weak at the broken places
Yet I will talk until the cows come home of my weakness and pain with you
Only my nose ‘cries’ tears into tissues, but do my eyes betray me?
Can you see me in here, hiding?
With my backpack full of heavy rocks
Which dent and twist my spine
The agony is severe and persistent
I wish I could put it down for a while
So I may rest a little and escape my inner tortuous world
Yes, mostly I am ‘on show’, my public face smiling
When inside I hurt so deeply
Yet I love so passionately
Can you see me, hiding?
Essentially Ellie 