Suddenly, the bottom has dropped out of my world and i feel desperate. I have no reason – my state of mind is liable to change from minute to minute. I was ok ten minutes ago. Now, I’m not ok, far from it. I am complicated – most people don’t understand me. I have Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder (BPD), i have DID which makes me ‘mad’ in most peoples’ eyes, i have anorexia, i self harm plus a multitude of other psychological and physical stuff going on. I am angry, I am hurting. I want to die. This video shows you some of what i feel every day:
I am fractured; i am broken
I want the pain to go away. I want the pain to STOP. Inside my head, is screaming. I want to die. I have no value. I have no worth. I am of no use to man nor beast. Please, just let my mind stop thinking. I want to die.
Essentially Ellie 