Today, I feel different! Today, I feel good. Don’t know why, considering yesterday I was ready to throw the towel in. I guess it’s partly BPD (I can be suicidal one minute, and the next, as high as a kite, to say nothing of impulsive and emotionally all over the place and around and around i go)! Nevertheless, i’m making the most of it while it lasts. My therapy went well today; I received a publishing contract for my third book; I’ve made a great new blog/email friend; I’ve been happy; I’ve been angry: I’ve laughed; I’ve cried; I’ve shared my feelings (important) and that’s why i love these blogs of ours; I’ve been a loser; I’ve been a fighter. Most of all, I’ve been a survivor.


I know many of my friends here will be feeling low and down and desperate and I understand; I’ve been there; I’m more often not still there and may well be back in the mud again by tomorrow. But for now, I want to send you all, my friends… my love and many big hugs and want to share this YouTube clip of Katy Perry’s “Roar” which gave me a ‘lift’ today xxx πŸ™‚

Author: Ellie Thompson

Writing my memoirs, musings, a little fiction and a lot of poetry as a way of exploring and making the most of my life ... ... Having had a break from writing my blog for more than three years, I decided to return to write my memoirs, some day-to-day observations, views and feelings. My passion is non-fiction poetry. I have a disability and use an electric powerchair called Alfie and let nothing get in the way of living life to the full. I believe that you can never do a kindness too soon and should give credit where credit is due. A smile or a kind word could make the difference between a good or bad day for a person - we never know what's going on for another soul. Those little things, perhaps, practised daily like a mantra, could mean so much to someone else. Thank you for visiting my blog and reading a little more about me. Please, make yourself at home here. You are very welcome. Ellie x 😊

10 thoughts on “SURVIVOR”

  1. I’m glad that you’re feeling much better – and I hope you can hang onto the amazingly great feelings and moments that made up this day – when you feel yourself sliding down the rabbit hole.

    Wonderful news on the contract. πŸ™‚

    This alone can help boost the flagging, lagging darkest of moods I hope. πŸ™‚

    1. Thank you so much for your kind words and your encouragement, Pat(ricia), and the congrats. on my contract. πŸ™‚ So far, so good with my mood and I’m trying to lighten the tone of my blog a little in future too. Thanks again x πŸ™‚

      1. Well I’m glad that you’re doing better – and you can call me Pat or Patricia – as you wish.

        As for your blog content – well – it will be what you need it to be in the moment – so it’s all good. Content changes as we grow and change and our wishes come out.

        I hope you have a very good weekend πŸ™‚

        1. Thanks, Pat. Your comments are really helpful :). I’d love to follow your blog but i can’t work out how to get past the Gravatar page. I can’t get the hang of that at all. As soon as i do, i would like to follow you as i like your outlook on life πŸ™‚
          Hope you have a great weekend too! Hope to be in touch again very soon xx πŸ™‚

          1. thanks – actually – if you read a post at my page – just type in on a seach engine – then click the link – you’ll come to the main page. Since you’re a Word Press Blogger – somewhere on your screen, you’ll see a “Follow icon” or tab or whatever – or simply sign up on the blog itself – there is a tab on the right-hand side where it says “follow with X number of people” – and click it – follow the instructions etc. It’s far simpler than you would think πŸ™‚

            And thank you for the desire to read/follow my blog. As for outlook – I just have to keep trying – a life of misery is no life at all – so in some small way – moving forwards,even if falling back 3 steps, *still* is an accomplishment.

            Have a great day and weekend πŸ™‚

  2. Oh wow! What a coincidence! I’m already following LemonLimeFollies but i didn’t realise that was you, Pat!! I love your blog anyway. Your new blogs already come into my inbox! Ellie xxx πŸ™‚

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