Well, i just phoned X and told them the truth; that i have a blog, and yes, it does go out there to the world (as they put it). They yelled negatives and insults down the phone, adding “don’t come running to me when it all ‘comes out’  and i don’t want to be involved with you anymore”. X was such an important person in my life. I loved them, looked up to them and now i’ve lost them. I am devastated.


I need your support, my friends, i feel lost without X. Why do i have to be so honest about everything, even to my detriment?


This video is for you, my friends because you’re always there to pick up the pieces. I need you to see right through my walls. I need you to see the real me and accept me for who i am. It’s difficult for me to trust but when i blog and you hear me, i feel safe; i feel like i’m home. Thank you and God bless you, my friends. xxx


9 thoughts on “DEVASTATED!

  1. If a “friend” is a true friend – one who holds your best interests in their hearts – they will understand that you need to do the things you do – like share bits and pieces of your story – even if using an alias – which is completely fine – because it allows you to connect in a way that isn’t always possible person-to-person. If a “friend” accepts you – for who you are – they will understand – and not give you the 3rd degree – and if in the moment, they are too frightened and hurt and upset – they will make an effort to reach back out and address the situation. True friends – are ones that just accept – and understand – if the relationship/friendship is honest.

    1. Thank you, Pat. I know, in my heart that you are correct. I wish my friend would accept me as i am. I am trying to let her go at the moment but my fear of abandonment is stopping me. I have few enough ‘real life’ friends as it is but i realize that with her current attitude, she is doing me more harm than good. Perhaps she is not a ‘true’ friend at all. Thanks for understanding xxx

      1. You’re welcome and I do hope that you are able to see your way through this rough time – I really do understand – so, maybe just take each moment at a time – breathe and be sincerely good to YOU – you deserve some self-love. πŸ™‚

  2. I’m sorry Ellie. That’s very tough. I for one am glad you blog. Why shouldn’t you? You have a right to put your truth out there. It happened, all the stuff you blog about, it happened. And it is your story. And you have a right to share it! I am sorry X decided that they didn’t want to be involved with you any more. But you know what? That is their loss. They are the one missing out on a wonderful person persons. XXX

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