I am, by nature, a born pessimist! I don’t want to be but have never known how to be any other way. My entrance into this world and my growing years were extremely negative and in addition, I come from a large family or pessimists. I want to change this into being positive but have no idea where to start.

When I first started writing this blog (in January 2014), the idea was just to keep a log of my thoughts, feelings and activities. I had no idea that I would make cyber-friends who I care very much about but who could be snuffed out like a candle in one second on the keyboard. And I didn’t realise that this worked in reverse, of course. I have been snuffed out by a few people (not many) who I have met on my way through and all be it, I will never meet them but it still hurts like hell. I had no idea that I would become part of a close-knit community who feel almost like family. Am I too sensitive? Perhaps I’m not a realist?

I wanted this blog to be friendly in a happy sort of way. I wanted to write happy thoughts. I wanted to be positive. How come most of my posts have been seriously negative, reflecting the shadow of my life.


I think I think too much about everything. I reflect, in my writing, all the negatives. I don’t want to be like this!Β How do I break out of this perpetual cycle? I want to be positive but sometimes I think of all the mistakes I’ve made along the way and that doesn’t help and what’s more, I know it doesn’t help so why do it?!


I’m fed up dwelling on my admittedly, appalling, abusive past. I’m fed up with my hurtful, if not abusive, family! I want to write with a positive flavour. How do I turn all the negatives into positives?

Answers on a postcard please!

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Author: Ellie Thompson

Writing my memoirs, musings, a little fiction and a lot of poetry as a way of exploring and making the most of my life ... ... Having had a break from writing my blog for more than three years, I decided to return to write my memoirs, some day-to-day observations, views and feelings. My passion is non-fiction poetry. I have a disability and use an electric powerchair called Alfie and let nothing get in the way of living life to the full. I believe that you can never do a kindness too soon and should give credit where credit is due. A smile or a kind word could make the difference between a good or bad day for a person - we never know what's going on for another soul. Those little things, perhaps, practised daily like a mantra, could mean so much to someone else. Thank you for visiting my blog and reading a little more about me. Please, make yourself at home here. You are very welcome. Ellie x 😊


    1. Thank you very much for your support and your advice.Hope you are ok too. I’m not sure where I’m at t the moment. Big hugs to you xxx ❀

      1. Yeah I’ve just been catching up on some of your posts – seems like you’ve had a lot going on lovely. I’ve been a bit all over the place myself. Hugs to you xx

  1. You turn the negatives into positives one step, moment and breath at a time. It’s as simple as that.

    Okay – sounds corny and too simple-minded, especially when feeling completely and totally immersed in the thick of things, but maybe consider this Ellie — for every one post you make where you feel completely “yucked out or negative” – then immediately, or as soon as you can, write another post – a “pleasant or happy post” — it could be 3 words, 3 lines, 3 paragraphs — about something – *anything* that is a “good thing” — however small or “insignificant” it may seem to be to the world. i mean, who cares?

    The thing is — this is your space — you use it as you must – as needs must — because off-loading baggage is just that —- but if it gets you down too much – try my suggestion —- re-training your brain, body, soul and mind into a new and completely foreign way of being, thinking and existing – actually more than that – Living – is difficult – and it doesn’t happen overnight – no matter how desperately we may wish for that.

    One step at a time Ellie. Find what works for you. And then have the courage to do it. πŸ™‚

    1. What wonderful ideas, Patricia! I so look forward to your comments; I can’t tell you how much you help me. .I can really ‘tune in’ to your suggestions. I don’t know what you do in your ‘out of blog’ life but you are a wise owl! Thank you for your opinion – I value it, Ellie xxx ❀ πŸ™‚

      1. Lol — oh Ellie, you just brightened my day a whole lot — so thank you πŸ™‚

        Wise owl? well … hmmm … maybe … sometimes a bit too world weary though ;0

        What do I do out of blog life?

        not much — currently unable to work, waiting on test results (health) and more scheduling – should be on long-term disability (work accident related 14 years ago) — suffering from depression, FM, survivor of abuse — and generally – I suppose I would consider myself a mixed media artist.

        So … in a nutshell – with some humour thrown in for measured good — “jackass of all trades, mistress of none” πŸ˜‰

        I’m glad that somewhere along the way you find some ideas or thoughts or suggestions that may help you in your journey – that makes me feel good and hopeful – for you – and me.

        Have a great day πŸ™‚

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