I am, by nature, a born pessimist! I don’t want to be but have never known how to be any other way. My entrance into this world and my growing years were extremely negative and in addition, I come from a large family or pessimists. I want to change this into being positive but have no idea where to start.
When I first started writing this blog (in January 2014), the idea was just to keep a log of my thoughts, feelings and activities. I had no idea that I would make cyber-friends who I care very much about but who could be snuffed out like a candle in one second on the keyboard. And I didn’t realise that this worked in reverse, of course. I have been snuffed out by a few people (not many) who I have met on my way through and all be it, I will never meet them but it still hurts like hell. I had no idea that I would become part of a close-knit community who feel almost like family. Am I too sensitive? Perhaps I’m not a realist?
I wanted this blog to be friendly in a happy sort of way. I wanted to write happy thoughts. I wanted to be positive. How come most of my posts have been seriously negative, reflecting the shadow of my life.
I think I think too much about everything. I reflect, in my writing, all the negatives. I don’t want to be like this! How do I break out of this perpetual cycle? I want to be positive but sometimes I think of all the mistakes I’ve made along the way and that doesn’t help and what’s more, I know it doesn’t help so why do it?!
I’m fed up dwelling on my admittedly, appalling, abusive past. I’m fed up with my hurtful, if not abusive, family! I want to write with a positive flavour. How do I turn all the negatives into positives?
Answers on a postcard please!
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Essentially Ellie 
Your blog should be whatever it needs to be for you – positive or negative. Hope your doing ok lovely…much love to you xx
Thank you very much for your support and your advice.Hope you are ok too. I’m not sure where I’m at t the moment. Big hugs to you xxx ❤
Yeah I’ve just been catching up on some of your posts – seems like you’ve had a lot going on lovely. I’ve been a bit all over the place myself. Hugs to you xx
Am thinking of you too, sweetheart. Hope things settle down a bit for you soon. Hugs xoxox
You turn the negatives into positives one step, moment and breath at a time. It’s as simple as that.
Okay – sounds corny and too simple-minded, especially when feeling completely and totally immersed in the thick of things, but maybe consider this Ellie — for every one post you make where you feel completely “yucked out or negative” – then immediately, or as soon as you can, write another post – a “pleasant or happy post” — it could be 3 words, 3 lines, 3 paragraphs — about something – *anything* that is a “good thing” — however small or “insignificant” it may seem to be to the world. i mean, who cares?
The thing is — this is your space — you use it as you must – as needs must — because off-loading baggage is just that —- but if it gets you down too much – try my suggestion —- re-training your brain, body, soul and mind into a new and completely foreign way of being, thinking and existing – actually more than that – Living – is difficult – and it doesn’t happen overnight – no matter how desperately we may wish for that.
One step at a time Ellie. Find what works for you. And then have the courage to do it. 🙂
What wonderful ideas, Patricia! I so look forward to your comments; I can’t tell you how much you help me. .I can really ‘tune in’ to your suggestions. I don’t know what you do in your ‘out of blog’ life but you are a wise owl! Thank you for your opinion – I value it, Ellie xxx ❤ 🙂
Lol — oh Ellie, you just brightened my day a whole lot — so thank you 🙂
Wise owl? well … hmmm … maybe … sometimes a bit too world weary though ;0
What do I do out of blog life?
not much — currently unable to work, waiting on test results (health) and more scheduling – should be on long-term disability (work accident related 14 years ago) — suffering from depression, FM, survivor of abuse — and generally – I suppose I would consider myself a mixed media artist.
So … in a nutshell – with some humour thrown in for measured good — “jackass of all trades, mistress of none” 😉
I’m glad that somewhere along the way you find some ideas or thoughts or suggestions that may help you in your journey – that makes me feel good and hopeful – for you – and me.
Have a great day 🙂