Today is bleak yet I want my heart to shine.
My face, drawn. Better if it cracked a smile.
My mood is sombre, longing for light to break through.
I am in darkness but I pine for a sunbeam.
I try too hard. Go easy.
I’m battling alone. Ask for help.
The nights are dark. The moon hides her face.
A blackbird sings. Why does this not delight me?
How did I get to be in this place?
I stopped believing in rainbows, in wishes, in stars,
In fairies, in angels, in the majesty of this planet.
I questioned if there was indeed a God.
A page of my bible fell open. In it I read:
“Trust God from the bottom of your heart.
Don’t try to figure out everything on your own.
Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go.
He’s the One who will keep you on track.
Don’t assume you know it all.
Run to God! Run from evil!” (Proverbs 3:5-7)
ALL IS WELL WITH THE WORLD.
May this bring comfort to others who suffer today..
Essentially Ellie 