Well, I’ve finally done it! ‘It’ being that I’ve finally made the decision I’ve been dithering about for months. I am leaving my church to go to a much smaller community church. Having had many happy times there in the past eight years, I now find, that my church has now got too big. It is a very rich church; in fact it is the richest church in my town. The congregation now number 400 and with that many people, you can’t possibly keep up with everybody else’s lives or to think, care and pray for each individual. It is sad to say but it has become impersonal now. They have conference rooms, an absolutely beautiful building with a stunning worship hall, run a smart cafe and numerous other functions, clubs and groups. It is a very successful church attracting people from miles around and I have to say, is wonderful in its diversity. Having said all that, I haven’t attended the Sunday or the Thursday services at my church for nearly eight weeks now due to going through a rough patch in both my mental and physical health. No-one has contacted me to see how I am or whether indeed, I’m still on the planet; not one soul and I am hurt. Should I be? Am I expecting too much? Am I being unrealistic? I don’t think so. Where is their pastoral care? Where is their Christianity? Am I indeed, developing an unchristian attitude myself?
I am passionate about my faith. I know I can be passionate about my faith anywhere but I want to share this with others who feel the same. I want to express my feelings about God openly, demonstrably and sharing this with others and if I do so in my first church, It is frowned upon whereas everyone is free to worship in which ever way feels right for them in my new church. However, God is everywhere. I know I can worship and praise Him whether I be in one church or a different church, or indeed at home or in fact wherever and whenever I wish.
But I am happy now that I’ve made a decision. I have found a much smaller community church which is really friendly and personal. Everybody there comes up to me to say hello and they don’t seem at all perturbed by my trusty, blue, electric wheelchair otherwise known as ‘Charlie’! I’m getting to know people quickly, and them, me. They have a small cafe (coffee and biscuits) which is open to the public every morning and various small groups in the afternoons. But most important of all is that they are passionate about their faith and demonstrably so which I love and feel so comfortable with.
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I’m happy to hear that you have finally made a choice that seems to be sitting so well with you! Wonderful news Ellie – and I’m sure you feel as if a weight has been lifted?
Sometimes we need to let go of what no longer suits us, even if it is beautiful, in order to truly find our new and best path and way 🙂
Be happy and joyful in your new community 😀
Hugs to you Ellie XXX
Thanks Mj. It is a relief and and I now so look forward to going to my new church on a Sunday and to activities in the week 🙂
I haven’t been able to get hold of the Minister of my original church but I have an appointment next Monday to tell her that I am moving on – I am a bit anxious about how that will go but know I have made the right decision. Sorry if I sound a bit ‘flat’ today – I am, for some reason, feeling down this morning although I’ve no doubt that will lift later in the day – that’s BPD for you!
Hugs too, Ellie xxx
sorry about the delayed response – and I hope that you’re feeling better 🙂
You can only do what’s “right” for you – and your former Minister should understand – so remember the good times and moments you had there – and leave with that 🙂
Thanks Mj, for your reassurance. I have indeed, had many happy years there despite the current difficulties and was actually baptised there some years ago which was an extremely happy time xxx 🙂
What a heavy decision…and I think, in my humble opinion, that you made it admirably. What served you at one time, no longer does. An observation, they didnt outgrow you….it was you who outgrew them. Like an old pair of shoes. Im hopeful that you have found a new home in this smaller congregation. ☺💗