Can’t read
Can’t write
No rest
Hard fight
Can’t hear
Feel fear
All alone
No one there
Big smiles
All day
Great acting
Run away
Feeling pain
Not numb
Silent now
Staying dumb
Giving up
Too much shame
Held inside
Played the game
Being good
No escape
Dirt shows
Child rape
So soft
Weak-willed
Too tough
Justice killed
Can’t see
Don’t tell
Keep quiet
Gone to hell
* #MeToo is a social movement originating among women, advocating for survivors of sexual harassment or violence to speak out about their experiences.
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Author: Ellie Thompson
Writing my memoirs, musings, a little fiction and a lot of poetry as a way of exploring and making the most of my life ...
... Having had a break from writing my blog for more than three years, I decided to return to write my memoirs, some day-to-day observations, views and feelings. My passion is non-fiction poetry. I have a disability and use an electric powerchair called Alfie and let nothing get in the way of living life to the full.
I believe that you can never do a kindness too soon and should give credit where credit is due. A smile or a kind word could make the difference between a good or bad day for a person - we never know what's going on for another soul. Those little things, perhaps, practised daily like a mantra, could mean so much to someone else.
Thank you for visiting my blog and reading a little more about me. Please, make yourself at home here. You are very welcome. Ellie x 😊
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And #ME TOO is supported by men who do not want to see women harmed in this way. Or any way. Or any living being. Harm is detrimental to living a good life, but as long as we accept that it exists without trying to change/stop it we are as guilty as the harm-doer him or herself.
People have become complacent about violence, as if it is a normal part if life! Violence is abnormal. It needs to be ended!
Hear hear
Thank you for pointing out this fact, J. I agree about violence in society being almost taken as if it’s okay. It’s not – It’s NEVER acceptable, as you said. Sorry I didn’t include men amongst the #Me Too supporters. You are quite right. I can’t bear to see violence of any description being forced upon people, children, animals, society in general or the planet. Thanks for commenting so wisely. I hope you’re okay, J.
Raw and strong.
Love it.
And you.
Thank you, Granny. I love you, too Xxx 💞
Excellent piece, Ellie! Bravo!
How have you been?
Thank you, Harshi. Good to hear from you. I’m having a bit of a tough time at the moment, but I find my writing helps me process what I’m feeling, so it is quite a relief to share my work here. How are you doing? Xx 💕
All good my friend. Sending you love as well.
Yes, writing is a big release. All those hidden emotions tumble out…….. It’s a gift!
I know writing is helping you little by little, and keep doing it. 🙂
You are a gold that’s ready to shine.✨ Good times ahead, more smile ahead. Wishing you peace and explosive power.
Thank you so much, Devang. Your words are always so lovely. Thank you for all your patience and encouragement to heal.
Keep shining!! I had visited again. I thought I didn’t read your latest poem. I am missing a lot of blogs.
Thank you for visiting again, Devang. Is it just my blogs you’re missing, or are there other bloggers’ posts that you’re missing too? WP does some very weird things sometimes. Do you check your spam regularly? I know that sometimes, my notifications end up in my spam folder. I hope you have a wonderful day, my friend. I appreciate all your comments on my blog posts.
Actually, if I tell you honestly the reason why I missed many blogs is because there are certain people that I’m following who posts multiple post throughout the day. This is why, many blogs which I actually care about gets below in the reader.
I have notification on for your latest blogs. Everytime you post, I get a notification. Like this, I have notification for some other favourite sites.
Most of the time, I don’t care about other blogs other than my favourites 😛
Ah, thank you for explaining, Devang. I tend not to use my Reader as I get notifications on my blog and email account. Each person has a different way of keeping track of other bloggers’ posts. I, too, have some blogs I follow where the person posts several times a day. I do follow them for a while, but then I just can’t keep up, and, as you said, it leaves me less time to read my favourite bloggers. Sometimes, I have to unfollow the writers who post several times a day; otherwise, I wouldn’t have time to read my favourites.
I browse readers frequently. Although, I have notification on for my favourite sites (which is 5 sites I think). These sites have no fix pattern, when they will post and sometimes I miss the notifications due to other notifications. I thought mail would be great idea, but I receive multiple mails throughout the day, so I miss many mails. 😅
There are many sites which don’t interact much, so I have unfollowed them. Then there are some who haven’t posted for months, so yeah. Those people who posts multiple times, I ignore their many posts,haha. Because, If I’m not reading then there’s no point in commenting. I never like randomly, like many people who are following me does and that annoys.
Anyway, this was a long conversation. I forgot to ask something crucial.
How are you? How are you feeling?
Are you feeling better than yesterday??
🙂
Thanks for explaining further, my friend. I am very grateful that you follow and comment on my posts. It’s so much appreciated. Today, I’m feeling about the same. I was going to go out for a drive in my wheelchair, but it’s pouring with heavy rain and will be all day today, so I’m just staying home in the warm.
Then maybe listening to some good music at home. Or working on a new blog or writing something else or movie or something.
Please take good care, shine
I’m glad the Me Too movement is giving such vocal support to victims of abuse! And glad it’s supporting you too.
Thank you, Ann. I think the #Me Too movement is still there, although they seem to be a virtual group rather than an active one these days. I think the support is more that of knowing that others have stood up for the right to speak about their abuse and we are not alone. I’m not even sure the movement still exists in the UK. Perhaps, someone else who may read this could put me in the picture about the organisation. Thanks again for your continuing support while I work through such a difficult time. It means an awful lot to me. X
Powerful writing, Ellie!👍🏼
Thank you, Aaysid. That’s kind of you to say. Xx
Grabs at your heart. Beautifully penned. ❤
Thank you very much, Penny. I appreciate your comment. I will reply to your lovely email either later, or tomorrow. I’m so glad we’re in touch Xx 💞
me too! 🙂
My heart goes out to you, myself and all who have been abused. And yes, it is time to end all violence that happens from the personal to global levels.
Thanks for following my blog.
Thank you so much, Katelon. I’m really sorry you’ve had this experience yourself. I feel for you so much, as I know what a detrimental effect abuse has on victims/survivors. I hope you are coping as well as you can be and that you are well. I’m happy to be following your blog and am looking forward to reading your next post. Take good care of yourself. Xx 💕
Another extremely powerful poem, Ellie. I know your exhausted from wearing your smiling mask all the time and I’m glad you feel safe and supported here to show us the pain underneath. You’ve gone through something nobody should and I see you clawing back one word at a time. Keep going.
Dear Bridgette, you understand me so well. It is very hard to keep pretending to be ‘fine’. My blog is my one place where I can safely express my truths and honest feelings. I am so grateful for my blogging friends, you included, for being so supportive, patient and caring. Many a person would have given up on me by now. My blog is my little family and you are all appreciated very much. Love to you Xx 🤍
I feel for you and hear your pain in these heart wrenching lines of poetry. Sending you so much love ❤️
Thank you so much, Janet. Your words are very comforting and much appreciated. Love and hugs to you, dear new friend. Xx 💗💕
Sorry to read that you’re struggling again, Ellie. Those are strong words and must help a little, rather like the proverbial going down the basement and punching hell out of a punchbag.
Thank you very much, Mick. It seems as soon as I pick myself up a bit, another blow comes along to knock me down again. It’s exhausting. My writing helps, and I am so grateful to have so many supportive, caring and patient blogging friends here. At least, I can be totally honest here, where in my day-to-life, I’m trying to wear my ‘I’m fine’ mask to protect those I love. My family have enough problems of their own with one thing and another, and I need to be there for them fully. Thankfully, my family don’t read my blog, and most of them don’t even know I write one. I like to keep it that way. Hitting a punch bag appeals, although I really haven’t got the energy or strength to do it, even if I had one. I hope you and your family are all well, Mick. X
I fully appreciate you don’t want to load extra burdens onto your family, especially if they have their own problems (which I suppose everyone has, anyway), but I wonder if in trying to be strong for them you might be unnecessarily burdening yourself, in that it would probably benefit you all for everyone to understand there are times when you need, perhaps, space to just have a difficult day. I’m probably putting this very badly, but I think we all need days when we just can’t adult and it’s beneficial to just let go for a while.
And yes, we’re all well, Ellie. Thank you.
Thank you, Mick. I do see where you’re coming from, but I feel I owe it to my children to be ‘ fully there’ for them because of things that happened years ago, which also led to severe mental health problems and lengthy hospitalisations. They really missed out on having me as a Mum in their fragile younger and adolescent years. That’s part of a whole other story that I may include at some point in the future. I’m so glad you and your family are all well. Thanks again for all the support you’ve offered me over the many years we’ve known each other here at WP. I think we go back to about 2015 if I’m correct? That was only a year after I started my blog. Goodness, a lot of water has gone under the bridge in that time.
I completely understand that, Ellie. You’re obviously best-placed to decide how to deal with these things.
2015? It could be. I joined WordPress in August 2015, so it’s certainly possible. Yes, a lot has happened in that time.
Woah!
Strong words.
Shaken to the core.
Already in hell.
Need help?
But cannot tell.
Thank you for reading and appreciating my poem and being kind enough to leave me a comment. Also, thank you for following my blog. I will pop over and take a look at what you write either later or tomorrow.
I really liked your poem!
Thank you so much.
The entire piece is beautifully crafted, but the stanza that spoke to me the most was:
Big smiles
All day
Great acting
Run away
I think many can relate. I know I can. There’s so much pressure on appearing like everything is sunshine and rainbows. Why??? And then we complain about people hiding behind closed doors, becoming isolated, and sometimes ending their lives. We all play a part.
Yes, I agree with you, Sam. Many people have to paint smiles on their faces to get through their days without showing the pain that they’re suffering inside. I know I do that a lot. I think I’m trying to protect others from feeling that, perhaps, they should be doing something to help. I don’t need anyone to pick me up off the floor, but rather someone to lay on the floor beside me until I can get myself up again. There’s a saying about that with slightly different words, but I can’t recall it right now. Not sure if I made sense with that statement. X
I absolutely understand and agree.