Let my fears float away
in a hot air balloon
above the dark clouds
and up to the moon
All my pain and the anger
sent up to the sky
the winds blow them gently
as I watch them fly by
Rip up scarred words
and burn them with sage
watch them all wither
and releasing the rage
Try punching a pillow
or let out a scream
digging for gold
or my lost self-esteem
Bang on a drum
play music so loud
don’t need permission
it’s fine; it’s allowed
Write down my thoughts
draw out a sketch
pin them up on the wall
and take a deep breath
Let your grievances lapse
write a gratitude list
swaddle the hurting
while angels are kissed.
I’ve had a more positive day today, so it’s made a nice change and was quite some relief, too. I hope it lasts, but even if it’s just a little taster of how life could be, it’s been good to be able to write something a bit more upbeat.
I wrote this after having a conversation with my counsellor yesterday. She asked me, totally out of the blue, what I’d like to do with all my pain, trauma and nightmarish memories. On the spur of the moment, without giving it much thought, I just came out with, ‘I’d like to put them in a hot air balloon and let them float up to the sky until the balloon is completely out of view.’
(I’ve also just started reading a book by a WP blogging friend, Tamara. If you’re reading this, Tamara, thank you for all your support and for letting me know about your books. I can see so much of myself in them. If you’d like me to link you to this post, just contact me, and I’ll be more than happy to do so.)
I’ve just started to draw a sketch of my imaginary balloon. It’s too late to finish and post it here tonight, but if I get it finished by tomorrow, I’ll add it to this post then.
Not exactly a sketch, but a very amateur attempt at drawing/colouring a picture of a hot air balloon. As you can see, I’m not an expert at art!
Ellie Thompson
Essentially Ellie 
I love this Ellie! It’s such an upward spiral 🌀 💕
Thank you so much, Kate. I feel this too and am hoping it’ll last a while. Xx 🌷☀️💗
It is so nice to hear a happier you. I hope we get to see more of this woman!
Thanks so much, J. So do I. I’m making the most of it and hoping it’ll last a while, at least. X 💗💗💗
🙂
Thanks, Jeff.
It’s a great idea to spend everything in a hot air balloon, but then I don’t want it to come down ever again.
Instead, I want to tie to a rocket 🚀 and let it take to outer space.
I love the poem, it shows some light. Keep searching for that light, and one day it will be yours.
I also want to read tamara ma’am books 🙂
Need to see if paperback is available in India.
Take care 🙌🏻🔆
Thank you for your encouraging comment, Devang. Yes, a rocket would be a good idea (as long as it doesn’t come down again). Thank you for liking my poem. I will keep searching for the light. If you contact Tamara on her WP website, I’m sure she will send you a link to her books. I used these and although the links took me to a US Amazon website, I checked out the title on the UK Amazon site and found I could get the books there. You might be find them in India. I do hope so as they are excellent books. Take care, too, my friend 🌞.
Will do 🙂🌟🐇
I’m so glad you’re having a good day! And I think visualizing all your hurt and pain simply floating away is a good idea….
Thank you, Ann. It was a relief to have a positive day yesterday. I hope it will last, although I think things will be tough after losing my therapist. I’m now getting some support through my very kind GP and mental health services as of this week. Thanks for your encouragement, Ann X
I’m so glad you’re getting some help!
Great lines, Ellie!
Glad to know you’re having a good day.
Thank you, Vidah. That’s very kind of you to say. I appreciate your comment.
This is the YOU I have been waiting to see.
Love you.
Thank you so much, Granny. I’m glad it lifts your heart. You are such a wonderful friend. I will email you later as time run away with itself yesterday. Love you lots Xxx 💖🌼💞
Yes, do it, Ellie. Send it all up never to return — happy riddance 👏 loved this poem. Keep going. Stay in the light. xoxo
Thank you for your encouraging comment, Selma. I’m glad you liked my poem. I will do my best to stay in the light as much as I can. Xxx 💓🌼💕
This is really good to see, Ellie.
Thanks so much, Mick. It felt good to write it. I will keep trying to look onwards and upwards if I can. X
Smiling for you, my friend.
That’s lovely – thank you so much, my friend.
I love this! Wonderful imagery. Beautifully done, Ellie. I’m so glad that you have a positive day. I pray that if you hold on to that feeling, it will multiply. ❤ ❤
Aww – thank you, Penny. That’s a lovely thing to say. It was a relief to have a good day yesterday. Although I have some very tough times ahead of me, I hope I can hold on to some of this positivity. Xx 💐💚
So happy you had a good day, My Dear!!! I’m hoping you will be able to string a few of these good days together!!
There is a really great TED TALK on youtube that I like that has helped me you might want to check out – “Want To Be Happy? Be Grateful!”. 😊💕🌹
Thank you so much, The Reluctant Poet. That’s very kind of you to say. I, too, am hoping for more days like yesterday. Today, so far, is relatively okay, so I’m making the most of it. Thanks for the information on the TED Talk on YouTube. I shall certainly search for that. X 🤗🌷💕
So sorry! I forgot to add the link!!
Thank you. That makes searching for it easier.
I’m pleased to hear you’re feeling more positive, I would like to see your balloon sketch 🙂
Thank you very much, Simon. I’ve added my balloon picture to the bottom of yesterday’s post. It’s very childlike, but I had fun doing it😊.
It’s a lovely sketch! 🙂
Thank you, Simon.
Beautiful post. I love synchronicity (words of gold, with words untold). Looking forward to seeing your hot air balloon.
Thank you, Andrew. I’ve added my picture of my somewhat amateur hot air balloon to the bottom of my post. I’m definitely not an artist!
Great picture Ellie, I imagine it was therapeutic to create it.
Thanks, Andrew. Yes, it was very soothing to do.
I wonder if you have also lived in New Mexico. 🤨❤️
Hello, Silent Singer. No, I’ve never lived in New Mexico. I’ve lived all my life in England. I just wondered why you asked. Just curious. 🤔💕
New Mexico is know for the international balloon fiesta. It’s known for hot air balloons: they’re part of the culture ❤️
If you ever get a chance to travel to the US, it happens annually the first week of October.
What a wonderful writing Ellie 😊 what great imagery. To be able to put all the negative pain into a hot air balloon and send it into the universe where it belongs. Cute drawing too by the way. I hope you’re having a good day when you see this. Sending you lots of love. ❤️💕🎈❤️
Thank you very much, Jenn. It was just the first thing that came to mind when my counsellor asked me what I’d like to do with all my feelings and bad memories. I’m trying to hold on to the positivity I had when I wrote this poem, although today isn’t such a good day. I’m glad you liked my drawing, childlike as it is. Loads of love to you Xx 💜🌼💖🌻💕🤗
You’re welcome Ellie. I’m sorry today isn’t a good day. I wish every day could be, for you, for me, for us all. You’re here and that’s all that matters in the end. Lots of love xx 💜🌼
Ellie your poem made me think of Enya’s song ‘Orinoco Flow’ – drifting, floating away 💛
Great hot air balloon, cheerfully coloured too ✨
Take care ☕️x
Hi Cherryl. I remember that song, too. Perhaps, I’ll listen to it again this afternoon. My balloon picture was very amateur so just a bit of fun, really. I hope you are well. I read your recent blog post, but want to read it again. Hopefully, I’ll have more time over the next few days. Hugs Xx 💜💐💛
Yes! I love the image of floating them all up in a hot air balloon, far away from you. Never to return. I wonder if you could write yourself into a story of it happening. What does the pain look like? A black shape? A monster? How do you release the balloon? Do you cut a rope with a large pair of scissors? Or use a golden-edged sword? Where does it go? Does it slam into an asteroid? Is it sucked into a black-hole?
Thank you for your lovely comment, Bridgette. What delightful ideas. I will give them a lot of thought. Fiction isn’t my strong point, but it’s certainly worth thinking around your ideas, which are wonderfully imaginative. It’s definitely something I will think about doing. Thanks so much again. Xx 💛💐💛
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Ellie, thanks for the shout-out! I’m sure you’re well on your way, and hope your journey will be as smooth as sailing in a hot air balloon! What a wonderful image!