Live Life – Note To Self (A Poem)

Do you remember the early days
when you were really a mess?
You caused your friends and family
an awful lot of distress

You never thought at that difficult time
you could grow and make a change
You were far too ill to see it, then
Psychotic and very deranged

You’re now no longer the child that died
You’ve rid yourself of the pain
You’re now a responsible adult
Cut free from shackles and chains

You’ve now begun to make peace with yourself
Don’t have all that pain inside
You pulled yourself up by your bootlaces
and new guidelines you’ve applied

You know life won’t always be easy
We all have our trouble, our strife
So make the most of every day
Because you only get one life

Now here you are in your sixties
and you still have a future ahead
Leave behind those constant regrets
Live your life to the fullest instead.

Photo by Sebastian Arie Voortman:

Author: Ellie Thompson

Writing my memoirs, musings, a little fiction and a lot of poetry as a way of exploring and making the most of my life ... ... Having had a break from writing my blog for more than three years, I decided to return to write my memoirs, some day-to-day observations, views and feelings. My passion is non-fiction poetry. I have a disability and use an electric powerchair called Alfie and let nothing get in the way of living life to the full. I believe that you can never do a kindness too soon and should give credit where credit is due. A smile or a kind word could make the difference between a good or bad day for a person - we never know what's going on for another soul. Those little things, perhaps, practised daily like a mantra, could mean so much to someone else. Thank you for visiting my blog and reading a little more about me. Please, make yourself at home here. You are very welcome. Ellie x 😊

61 thoughts on “Live Life – Note To Self (A Poem)”

      1. I am doing well so far, my friend, thank you. Being an adult, lol. This week has been productive so far as I have gotten to do the things that ought to be done, and for that I’m really grateful and do not take if for granted. Thanks for asking. I’ll get to your letter soon. I know you know I haven’t forgotten about it? How are things with you so far this week? Take care and warm hug, friend.

        1. Hello, Thompson. I’m so glad you are well and keeping up with things that must be done. It’s always a good feeling when you have achieved what you set out to do. Please, don’t worry about the letter – I’m not going anywhere, and I know that life is so busy for many of us. I know you will write to me when you have time and when the time feels right for you. I am well, thank you, my friend – madly, crazily busy but in a positive way. I could just do with a few more hours in the day. Thinking of you and sending a fond hug 🤗 to you X

  1. I don’t want to, but I have to ask — is this the new you, the you you want to be, or still a little of both? I am asking so I can place you along your line of progress. I think I know where you are, but only you can tell me where you think (or know) where you are.

    1. It’s okay to ask, J. I am happy to be the new me, but as you, no doubt know, progress is never linear, so there are still little bits of doubt that creep in occasionally, but on the whole, I’m totally fine. I also have to be realistic, as we never know what life may throw at us. We’ll still get some curveballs from time to time, but I like to think I can handle them a lot better than before. Be reassured, my friend, I am in a good place right now and doing my very best to make sure it stays that way, too. Does that help at all? X 💙💚💛🤍💛💚💙

      1. That is what I wanted to hear. A new you, tempered by a bit of wariness. Wariness is a good thing, it means you are watching for the curveballs that you know will be coming.
        Meanwhile, do cricket bowlers throw curveballs? To me it is such a baseball term, and unless things have changed there is no baseball in the British Isles?????

        1. I’m glad you are okay with that. I know I am. Although curveballs are traditionally American (as in baseball, as you said), the Cambridge Dictionary defines a curveball over here as something such as a question or event that is surprising or unexpected, and therefore difficult to deal with. I do think the English adopted it from you, though. I never could stand cricket – my father used to shout at us to shut up when that was on. Apart from which, I never have been able to understand the rules! I’m really not well up on sport. I used to hate it at school, apart from gym. I was small and light and could shin up the rope or the gym equipment faster than anyone else. There were advantages to being small and thin 😉. 💚💛🤍💓🤍💛💚💙

          P.S. In case you were wondering why your comments now have to be approved, along with everyone else’s, the reason is that I had someone copy one of my posts without permission and without a pingback. I didn’t approve that, but somehow it is still showing on their blog page! I did contact WP support but they said there is no rule to say that pingbacks have to be used. I was quite surprised (and rather cross, as you can imagine.) They did suggest disabling pingbacks, too, which I’ve done. I don’t suppose you know anything more about the technicalities of WP and pingbacks, do you? X 💜💙🤍💙💜

          1. I know nothing, literally, about most of Word Press. I have figured out a bit over my 5 years on it, but really I am like a new-born child. If it works, I use it, but if it doesn’t work I look for a workaround. Mostly I just ignore their bells and whistles…

    1. Thank you so much, Bruce. Glad you like my plan. Thank you, also, for following my blog – that’s so much appreciated. Have a great evening (depending on where you are in the world, that is.)

  2. I love your poem. Such a great reminder to be present and alive in this moment. So fitting for me since I am now in my sixties and building my future. Thank you. Sending lots of love ❤️and happiness.

    1. Aww. thank you so much, Hanna. I’m so glad you could see something that resonated with you, too. It’s never too late to build a new way of living, and as you say, a new future, even in our sixties. Your comment has made my day – thank you. Wishing you love, joy and peace dear Hanna x 💖

    1. Thank you very much, Allie. Taking the decision to live my own life in a way that makes me happier has been a long, long time coming. It didn’t happen overnight – it just sort of popped into my head and it felt like the right time to encourage myself to let go and take the step. I hope you are well today. Xx 😘💕

    1. Thanks very much, Geoff. It feels like a good place to be, I must say. P.S. I’m in the middle of reading about your journey and how you came to settle in Lima. It’s amazing so far 😊.

      1. Thanks my sweets. Had a sneezy wheezy day today— I’m totally spent. It’s just past 9 pm and I’m seriously contemplating getting under the covers. It’s still chilly nights. Good night. I bless you, Ellie. Xoxox

        1. You are welcome, my friend. What is making you sneezy and wheezy; a cold, hayfever, something else etc. Sometimes when we’re feeling a little under the weather, it’s good to go to bed early as sleep is so restorative. Sleep well and goodnight, Selma. Xx 💐💖💕

          1. Oh, dear, that’s not so good. Hope it eases up very soon. What season are you in over there? I’m guessing it must be spring or summer if you are getting awful symptoms. Hugs 🤗 Xx 💐💕

  3. Bravo Ellie, like a Phoenix from the ashes, you have resuscitated yourself and are putting into practice all the best lessons you wish to carry forward in your life!

    1. Thank you so much, Tamara. I’m keeping my eyes fixed firmly ahead. It’s such a relief not to feel so down and almost suicidal like I was not so long ago. I’m in a much better place now. I’m also being realistic, as I know not every day can be like a bowl of cherries. Hopefully, when I get a down day occasionally, I will be able to handle it much better and won’t end up in that deep, dark tunnel again. At the moment, I’m looking at the stars. Xx 💐💕

      1. Remember the steps you took to get to where you are right now! When those down moments come, you will retrace your steps, and tell yourself that you are capable of doing it again! Keep going!

          1. You’re welcome, and I’m happy to offer support!

  4. Really impressed with the way you’ve taken control during this period without you mental health counselor. You’ve developed a lot of effective skills and you’re putting them to good use, Well done. BTW – writing short comments because I’m way behind due to vision problems.

    1. Thanks so much, Jeff. It’s been hard going at times, but I’m very glad I am feeling so much more positive and far better than I was. I’ve even surprised myself with regard to how well I’m coping, and without a counsellor for now, too.

      Please don’t worry about short comments. I welcome any comments, short, medium or long. I’m sorry that you’re having more problems with your vision. It must be so difficult and frustrating for you. I do hope, when you have your operation, that it will help to improve your sight problems. Take care of yourself in the meantime, Jeff.

  5. A beautiful poem ET 🙂
    This poem gives hope for the future.
    Yes, it’s self talk, it’s about you.
    But it’s about a journey of a powerful woman.

    I’m glad to see you here
    You are creating magic with these.
    I’m loving it 😀

    1. Thank you so much for your kind and encouraging comment, Devang. I really appreciate it. Yes, I do feel there is a better hope for my future. I feel so much better than I did a few months ago, and I intend to keep travelling along that track. I’m so glad you like my poetry. 😊.

    1. Thank you so, so much for appreciating my writing here. I am so pleased. I am doing my best to live a better life than in the past, and I’m winning most of the time. Thank you for wishing me happy things – I appreciate that so much – it means a lot to me. Xx 💙💐💖

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