I thought I might be on the road to healing
Well, it’s about time, too, they say
Questioning me with persistence
As I died a little more that day
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Do you think this is simply a drama
Played to the audience through neon lights
Just a show for your pleasure, ma’am
While I instantly freeze with stage fright
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Where are those skills you’ve learned
The ones that are meant to help you cope
You really ought to try harder, they say
As I turn away, giving up all hope
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You’re no spring chicken; get on with your life
Don’t you think you’ve wasted enough years
Dragging up the past; c’mon, time to move on
Wipe away those crocodile tears
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But I still have flashbacks; they haunt my mind
I can’t tell you how they scare me so
You don’t understand where I’ve been in my life
What d’you mean, you’re now ready to go
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I’m angry now for those harsh words spoken
But I can’t get allow myself to scream and shout
I am choking back salty tears of utter despair
I just wish I could let go and cry it all out
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Perhaps, it’s better you depart now
Go, get in your car if you must
Don’t come back here asking questions
My lips are sealed; ne’er again will I trust.
Essentially Ellie 