The past came back to haunt me yesterday
I thought I was over all that
It suddenly came flooding back
When opposite my counsellor, I sat
I cried a river of tears
As I remembered the sickening pain
I didn’t want to go back to that place
To experience everything again
The adult within me departed
Although I was sat in my seat
I could feel myself drifting away
As my heart skipped its regular beat
My thoughts were transported elsewhere
To a time so long ago
The world seemed unreal as time transposed
My agony completely on show
I had gone somewhere else in my mind
Somewhere distant and safe
I couldn’t be touched from where I was hidden
As I became the child, the waif
Gradually soft words broke through
It’s okay, you’re secure, you’re here
The voice, far away, waited patiently
Till the muffled speech became clear
Her voice brought me back to the room
My head cleared as she reached out her hand
The fear left and the pain abated
As I began to understand
My adult returned; it was time to go
Slowly, I walked to the door
I thanked her and smiled as the sun shone in
For I knew I was healing for sure.
Essentially Ellie 