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A Few More Hours In The Day, Please

Well, here I am again, finding I can’t keep up with everything I need to do, and my head is spinning! I’ve had to be out all day today; tomorrow, I have some work to do on a project; Saturday, my best friend is coming for lunch; and on Sunday, I said I’d go along to the local Quakers Meeting House to accompany a friend to a service for the first time. It should be interesting, and I am looking forward to it. I also have a lot of coursework to do, as I’m getting behind on that, too. Please, forgive me, once again, for missing some of your blogs for now. I need a few more hours in the day, or perhaps, a few more days in the week. Anyone here got a few to sell, by any chance šŸ˜!?

Add to all that the severe pain šŸ˜–I still have following my botched tooth extraction. I’m on stronger medication than morphine to try and get on top of the pain. It does render me a bit incapable sometimes, as I keep nodding off. It’s difficult to be productive when your brain is frequently ‘logging out šŸ˜¶!’ The medication is making my hands shake, too, so I constantly make mistakes when typing. All I can say is, “Thank goodness for *Grammarly!”

Anyway, I’ll leave it there for now. I humbly apologise for not reading your brilliant work recently. I am in the process of writing a poem, but I think that’s about all I can manage for the moment.

I know you are all kind and understanding, and you may be fed up with me pleading “overload” again, but I’d rather be honest about things than just suddenly disappearing into the ether.

I may be able to read a few blogs over my busy weekend, but I’ve learned not to allow myself to get exhausted. I know my health is important, whether physical, mental or emotional. I wish you all really well and I hope that you enjoy your weekend, whatever you are doing. If you’re alone and don’t want to be, I send you kind thoughts, calm and peace ā˜®.

That’s all for now … Much Love, Ellie Xx šŸ’“

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Dead In The Water

I know this is a bit unexpected, but Iā€™ve recently become very unsure of myself as a writer (and a reader, too, come to that). Iā€™m sitting in my chair in the living room and have spent the entire morning and much of the afternoon staring at a blank page, unable to write anything I consider worthy. Giving up on that idea, I decided to catch up on reading all the blogs Iā€™m so behind on. Iā€™ve read many repeatedly, and Iā€™m still finding my mind completely vacant when it comes to responding to them.

Some of you will also know Iā€™m taking a writing course with a group of writers and a tutor. Weā€™ve just had a two-week break, and I should have written and submitted at least three pieces of work in that time. Yet, I havenā€™t managed to produce anything that would pass as halfway decent. I have until Wednesday morning to come up with something. My mind is blank, completely blank.

ā€œSo, what is going on?ā€ I ask myself. I am still in a lot of pain from Fridayā€™s difficult tooth extraction despite two types of painkillers and antibiotics, which arenā€™t doing much to alleviate my discomfort. Iā€™m also worried that my lip and chin are still numb thirty-six hours after the procedure. That canā€™t be right, can it? Perhaps, Iā€™ve got nerve damage. Now, Iā€™m worrying even more. Iā€™m telling myself to stop panicking, but I canā€™t phone the dentist till tomorrow because itā€™s a bank holiday weekend.

Apart from being in pain and not having slept for three nights, Iā€™ve also just discovered that I should have come off my osteoporosis drug (Alendronic Acid) three months prior and following the extraction; otherwise, there is a very real risk of getting Osteonecrosis of the Jaw. Thatā€™s when the exposed jawbone in the gum dies, which can then spread to other parts of the bone in the jaw and face. I wasnā€™t given this information beforehand, so to say I am worried is somewhat of an understatement.

I began writing this at around 2pm yesterday, and here we are today at gone 2pm, and Iā€™ve written nothing of any worth of interest. Iā€™ve spent the entire morning flicking back and forwards through posts I want to read and comment on, but my concentration is severely lacking, and itā€™s past the stage of seeing anything other than panic and feeling overwhelmed.

Iā€™m seriously wondering whether I should give up my writing course and blogging, although I know Iā€™d miss all my classmates and blogging friends terribly. I donā€™t feel I have anything worthwhile to offer, and I shouldnā€™t expect others to take an interest in my writing if I cannot reciprocate. Perhaps, it would be better if I werenā€™t here. I feel hopeless, quite unlike my usual self. I think my desire to be a writer will never amount to anything. I am, for want of a better expression, dead in the water.

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Kaput!! (More Bad News)

Just when I thought things couldn’t get any worse in my world, they just did! My laptop completely crashed again today. It was utterly kaput, defunct, expired, deceased, and needing more than the kiss of life to revive it. I lost everything; all my work and all my open tabs again, where I had stored all my blogging friends’ valuable posts and more besides. This happened to me a few days ago, although not on such a large scale as today. I’m past the stage of crying now, and if I could let myself go, I would scream very loudly.

Last time, my techie guy came to try to reset my laptop. Today, he had to come back again and was here for over two hours, having to reinstall everything. He charges Ā£45 ($57) per hour. Today’s fee was nearly Ā£100!! Added to that was the fee for coming out last Monday, which was a Bank Holiday. The total came to Ā£175 ($221).

To add to all my despair, I had a tooth taken out this morning. It was an unexpectedly complicated extraction (more about that tomorrow). I was in the dentist’s chair for forty minutes, having had six injections to properly numb my mouth. I had to pay to go privately, as my regular NHS dentist couldn’t extract my tooth because I have a pre-existing condition, which makes having teeth out a risk. In the end, after much pulling, pushing and tugging, I ended up with three stitches.

When the anaesthetic started to wear off, I was in agony. I had strict instructions to just sip water and not to eat anything solid, not that I’m hungry anyway. I still feel quite traumatised and exhausted from the whole procedure. Tomorrow, I can eat soft food and drink warm drinks – whoopie doo!! The cost of my extraction, strong painkillers and antibiotics came to Ā£500 ($632). Add that to the laptop repair, and it totals over Ā£600 ($760)!! It looks like I won’t be getting much shopping this week. Just as well, my appetite has disappeared.

So … here I am again, begging for forgiveness for losing all your recent posts. Honestly, right now, I feel like throwing in the towel, but I know if I did that, I would only regret it. I so wanted to catch up on your blogs, but it looks like it’s not meant to be.

I’m absolutely shattered now, so will head on up to bed in the hope that a good night’s sleep and more painkillers will help me to feel better in the morning. I really do hope so – it’s been a day and a half today!